after we went out today, I felt differently about husband. I did not have my usual anger torwards husband. I felt deeply sympathetic torwards him. I felt very worried because of one of his health issues he is not addressing . I feared for him doing poorly and regretted some of my actions that I know added to any feelings of suffering and were basically made to punish him....like isolating him on christmas, and thanksgiving. I guess, I don't want him to suffer right now. Before i did. I know that I love him right now before I did not.
Was this because my need of time together was being met? Or is it just that my feelings are unstable? I want to develop that connection with him again and I don't know how. What do I do now? work on acts of service? Ttalking is probably not the thing to do
This is great learning and vulnerability Julie. I loved reading about your experience of love. Too good. Gave me the warm fuzzies. I would read this as you getting your needs met.
BTW, some people who have LL as QT, need quality conversation as part of it. I don't do small talk at all, so when I partner asks me how my day went, I have no ability to rattle off the top of my head how I felt and what I did with my day. My response if you ever ask is, "it was fine". Now while out riding my bike with my partner on they way to have lunch at a local cafe, out will come how my week has been, what happened, how it changed my life, what I am doing next. My partners would say, why don't to tell me this stuff during the week when I ask. I have to have connection, time and space, and undivided attention before I can open myself up. It's strange but true.
Maybe conversation is really important to your sense of connection and love.
Just my 2c for today. Not sure when you Bday is, but please have a glorious one.
