Fo, yes thank you. I was actually not in mood to do much tonight. I have kids this weekend yet feeling really lonely. Friends invited me out but I just didn't want to arrive and then leave alone. Other times I don't mind, but today I did. I will be up before 7 so can definatly catch up on sleep anyway.
I have just reread your message a few times and I am going to mull over it.
My husband has tons of resentment for me, so anything I say at this point regarding us might not be taken well. I have resentment for my husband so when I say something to him I need to first examine why I am saying it. The intent of many of my comments is to hurt because I hurt and I need to be careful. I am going to come back to your post right before next discussion with husband.
When we talk about anything that is not superficial I end up trying so hard to get him to understand me and he does the same and we both end up leaving the conversation feeling hurt and misunderstood. I think I am going to commit to just trying to understand his point of view for now and focus on that in our next conversation. I worry that it is too late.
His demeanor during brunch could have been many things. I always have interpreted him wrong. But he just seemed sad, or maybe defeated like it's over? I don't know. The actions were positive though...he woke up early to come out (something we always fought over) and he let kids pick out gifts and he was there.
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015
