Time will help.
She was very emotional leaving too.
I understand some of her tears were guilt.

In DR it says to set little goals and notice them. I get that it was an emotional moment but one of my goals was affectionate contact. There was a moment when I was holding it all back and a tear fell. She wiped it away and initiated a hug for the first time since this began. And then grabbed hips and squeezed.
There was little moments before she left. But she left and didn't come back.

I'm not going to initiate contact. As for 180s tho. I was distant and she didn't feel loved. Continuing down that path won't help. The 180 tho is showing I care without being needy or pushing.

Some days are good some are bad. Just have to roll with it sometimes

The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.