Rough day. Very deeply sad and weepy. I miss W so much. Maybe I shouldn't have a picture of us right at the foot of my bed? I have a lot of work to do. A heart to heart with a friend today. She suggested that I have a tendency to be pushy when I don't get my way. Oh god, I know I did that with W. How do you get rid of the regrets while still focusing on what you need to do to be a better person? I'm someone who was always sort of in the background. And that was so true with W because she has a big, charismatic personality. But being with her gave me strength and courage to be more assertive. Sounds like I overdid it. Yikes. I immediately went to: oh no, she'll never come back to me.
I miss her so much. Going to go check other threads then journal. You all don't need to hear all this.
Thanks, Rain. I hope I get used to it. Why is grocery shopping so hard? All i needed was pb and J and milk, and it left me in tears. Auggghhhhhh!!!
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
