I think I kind of did a new 180 last night . I recently contacted a very old friend who I haven't seen for several years but we still send each other Christmas cards and communicate on line. I didn't end up sending any Christmas cards this year as it was, quite honestly, the last thing on my mind. Then in the new year I started to feel really bad about all the people who had sent me one who didn't know what was going on and how rude they'd think I was. So I sent everyone a message explaining why I hadn't sent cards this year. This lovely lady came round last night bless her heart and it was so good to not only see her, but to know what a truly special friend she is to come as soon as she hears my plight after all these years. I feel so thankful for her.
H didn't turn up on Thursday (wasn't surprised, he never shows up after I dare to speak about what's going on). He text yesterday to say he'd be round if we were in. I told him we were in but I had my friend coming round. It felt so good! Of course, he probably wasn't bothered in the slightest but just the fact that for once I had made myself unavailable instead of dancing to his tune as and when it suits him felt great!
We had such a lovely evening. Mostly we talked about my M problems but it was so nice to know that someone else was in disbelief and thought my H is crazy too!
H text back, "No worries, I'll be round tomorrow night." It's almost the kid's bedtimes and so far he hasn't shown. Again. What a fine example of a father he is turning out to be. He also told me he has taken tomorrow off work if we're going to be about. Is he planning on some kind of cozy family day out? Or perhaps it is another selfish act and he's going to spend his day suiting himself. His disgusting attitude towards seeing our children is really starting to get to me.
. I recently contacted a very old friend who I haven't seen for several years but we still send each other Christmas cards and communicate on line. I didn't end up sending any Christmas cards this year as it was, quite honestly, the last thing on my mind. Then in the new year I started to feel really bad about all the people who had sent me one who didn't know what was going on and how rude they'd think I was. So I sent everyone a message explaining why I hadn't sent cards this year. This lovely lady came round last night bless her heart and it was so good to not only see her, but to know what a truly special friend she is to come as soon as she hears my plight after all these years. I feel so thankful for her. 