Respect needs to be mutual. Your husband must respect you, and you must respect your husband. For the vast majority of men, love to them is being respected. For the vast majority of women, love to them is being understood and appreciated - cherished.
No one deserves to be disrespected. Sticking up for yourself, loving yourself enough to lay that boundary down to him when he's spewing is very tough when you haven't done it before. I'm learning that personally. Never been good at boundaries... learning every day.
You have to love yourself enough to let that love show to others, to be able to love others.
M46, EXWW46 M15 T17 D20, S19, D13 M - Addiction since 1998 W EA/PA #1 2013/2014 W EA #2 June 2015... BD 1 Big D talk 9/15 BD 2 - EA/PA disc 10/30/15 Served D 1/22/16 Divorced 5/25/16 (yes, that fast!)