Back to square one, not sure I can do this again!

[Rain75]

I hear you. I too was deprived of affection during his mess of both PA and EA, though not as much during EA. I guess since I have brothers and friends that tell me men are visual and physical....that they can have sex with a woman that they have zero feelings for. I suppose that is why I say a strictly PA would have been easier to forgive.

For me the emotional kills me. Knowing he was sweet to her and loving and romantic. That he put thought into her birthday and their dates. That she got flowers and gifts "just because" he was thinking of her. Knowing we would be out with the kids or home watching tv or talking and she was on his mind. That was harder on me.