You guessed it, the edit button was my saviour on more than one occasion.
In addition I occasionally posted things like "go get a life" mainly to myself and then the sweeeeeeet pleasure of delete. You noticed since there is no edit, there is no delete.
My world is not the same.
Sigh....
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
Hang in there, V! Sometimes things svck and it's okay to admit that. It will get better:)
Sending you positive thoughts!
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
Please let the light of this board and all of the love that we have for you shine into your life today V.
Weight fluctuates, as do Fins. Somedays things are up, others they are down. As you've told me over and over - time is on our side. Your weight will drop back down, your Fins will sort themselves out. The pain of your sitch may come and go but I believe every time that it leaves it will get a bit further away from you.
We all have the clouds, they are like the real weather - fleeting, unpredictable, and with nothing to do but breathe through them.
Please know how much love is being sent your way from all of the posters here whose lives you have touched.
(that's a LOT of love Lady V)
Big hug to you, please keep posting until this little black rain cloud has found somewhere else to settle...perhaps over the life of your XH.
Much love,
PP
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
I'm glad you shared your feelings and mood. I had noticed, and thought to myself V, knows that I love her and thinking about her. I should have reached out with some love V.
Reading your posts on FOO Led. I realise now that when I have spoken of my history of childhood sickness, feelings of separatness, that you understood more than I had anticipated.
We talk about the rollercoster of life, but really it is a never-ending spiral. Life always comes back on itself to show us where we have been, to shed more light on both painful and happy things.
This work is not easy V.
I have never liked the word survivor, as a description of people who have some through abuse. I think you wrote recently about being a thriver as apposed to a surivior. Finally a word that adapty describes the other side.
You, Mu and Fogg and I are all sharing a very similar journey right now. We might need to huddle up a bit closer, to have a few more feelings of thriving.
PP said it best, as he does so eloquantly and with such grace. There is no need for more words. I will stop now, but you are loved V. This too shall pass.
Hi Vanillia. Did something trigger the cloud. Illness of any kind does not lend itself to positivity.
As wiser people have posted , it's ok to feel down but look at all your support
tbe abuse was terrible and it's not something that you will get over quickly I wish I could offer wise words but all I can do is offer my support and my gratitude to you for being Lady V.
PP thank you I will, sometimes being on my own thread is just too painful for me.
Sci this cycles with me, it's new thing in my life since my wedding day when the abuse started.
This too will pass JB, I would like as soon as possible but my higher power is obviously finding growth in it.
RD, in Gamanon we learn the acronym halt, to examine triggers it's hungry, angry, lonely and tired. I guess for me I think a lot about this I am as yet unsure. The trigger may be days away from the effects and the cloud.
A close friend, (one who owes me quite a lot of money as I invested in his business) died last Saturday. I had actually decided to ask him to repay some of the loan although I hadn't yet done it. So I guess it will be written off. My friends death is a real low to me, he was young and had really great ideas, he died of food poisoning.
I think his loss was the trigger that and feeling unwell with my throat infection. So lonely (loss) and tiredness (unwell). I also ate rubbish for three days including a Xmas box of chocs (Sugar hunger). That was Xmas 2013, so over a year in the cupboard without being touched and last night I had fish and chips, (heavy on the chips!). So a lot of ground to make back up on the eating plus another sugar detox....
Spitting tacs at myself, so now angry.
Back to the gym today and only one hour no spin, because chest is still wheezy.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
