To your comment about my self confidence, I say that it is more about the overall view we have of the world around us and the values we hold at our core being. If you have toiled through my wacky life story, you could conclude that I would be a complete degenerate and was capable of the most heinous acts imaginable. I have chosen to walk above the past and accept it for what it was. I have chosen to be the best me I can be. We as humans cannot control the actions of other humans, we cannot help someone who doesn't chose to help themselves. We can however chose to be what we want to be. I do want to stay married to my W and I do want to give it sufficient time to be sure that I can walk away knowing what I did was everything I could do, but I will never compromise my self worth for the benefit of someone who chooses to smear feces on me while I wait around hoping they see the light.
You seem like a very practical and happy person overall and it pains me to see someone like you suffer at the hand of another. All of us deserve more, all of us deserve to be happy and healthy. There isn't one reason I can come up with that is to the contrary. We can decide to not decide as well as decide to decide. No one is stopping anyone from doing so. Our main adversary resides within.
M: 39 W:38 D: 11 S: 7 T: 18 M:13 I suspect problem: 8/15 ILYB: 9/15 Never quit on love I ask her to leave:10/15
