What the heck is this?

[2Times2Many]

Okay, the guys I work with were pulling my chain. The movie had maybe two gross scenes, but was not as bad as they led me to believe. They'll hear from me when we get back to the office. Shame on them!

It was so good to get out ... even if solo. After my Christmas meltdown, I reread DR for ... well, I've lost track of how many times but it had been a while. You think you have digested it all, but always find it helpful to go back and read it again.

I don't know how many have read "Getting through to the man you love" but I highly recommend it as well. Not so much to help with those of us dealing with MLCers, but because it gives so much insight into changing ourselves to interact with basically anyone.

One of the things that I struggled with for a very long time was GAL. I thought that meant go out, do things with friends, stay active, be social. I've come to realize that I "lean" more toward the introvert side of the "vert" spectrum. I really struggled with the "be social" stuff because it just wasn't me. (If you listen to h now, he is a card caring extrovert. Not!) Still, I felt like I was not doing things "right" because I preferred to turn inward instead of being more extroverted and seeking a harem of friends as H has. Once I realized that I was still trying to behave as others (including h) "expected" me to without giving any real thought to who I really was and what works for me, it was like a huge weight had been lifted from my shoulders. I felt like ... this is who I am and I'm happy with who I am and I'm going to keep on being who I am!

It was then that I was able to let go of the anger, the resentment and all the other negative emotions that come with being the LBS of a MLCer. How that meltdown affected my M is yet to be discovered, but it definitely made a difference in my outlook on life. I am good with who I am!

It really is true ... you, too, are on a journey and time is indeed your friend. I've discovered so much about myself and am a much stronger person because of it. Regardless of where this journey leads me, I know I will be just fine.

Oh, and for those who question my "striptease" plan that I mentioned above ... that is not at all out of character for the "normal" me. H has often referred to me as his whacky wife and even my son calls me his "whacky Mom." That's me, that's who I've always been and I love who I am! (And I know that H will get a laugh out of it too .... no matter how negative his message was meant to be. Hope I get to do it soon!)