WW, My Addiction, Patience, and HOPE

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Zues,

I agree.

I'm excited to see my WW turn a corner. Too excited.
It's tough NOT to be excited... it's working, it's working!...

I'm not detaching myself from my marriage right now, but I'm not working on any relationship talk. I'm still pithy with answers to questions from my wife - and while I'm excited to see a turn back to the marriage, I also see a wife who just is confused, and someone who will need lots of time. Time to figure out if she really wants to be a part of this relationship.

I think Georgia Bulldog said it in a post above, or someone else did, but I see wanting to be with my wife now as a conscious choice, rather than an expectation. Do I still believe I took a vow in front of God, my friends, and my family? Yes. However, I have to think every day that she or I could leave, and be ok mentally and emotionally from that choice. I used to never think about - We just 'were'...

Side note - I'm going to get some physical therapy on the achilles, which has now been diagnosed as a calf strain as well - my flat feet coming back to haunt me. Will need to get new shoes, and start walking, but no running. Looks like the Shamrock shuffle 5k is out of the question - will need to look for something later in the year.

On my way to schedule a PT session, met a woman scheduler. Noticed no ring, but some small child pics at her station. Somehow, I made mention I had started to lose weight, pushed my speed/miles too much, and my 40 year old body isn't like is was. She laughed, and said why the weight loss? I mentioned a divorce will do that to a guy.

She's separated from her husband - 18 months. We had a couple moments together, I could see her tearing up as we bonded over similar stories, and she said she's never talked to some stranger at work about it, but I seemed willing to listen. Her husband cheated, and is now living with his parents, no job, no future.

She laughed, and then asked me out for a drink. I was flattered, but told her I'd take a raincheck, and talk to her next week when I come back.

No interest in jumping on that train, but it was the highlight of my day, maybe the week.