I like that about you JH. I'd prefer someone that knows they are on the edge of losing control and therefor doesn't put bullets in the gun, then someone that thinks they are in total control and ends up finding out the hard way they are not.
It's a tough spot to be but I am super happy for you tonight. I hope you have the opportunity for you to both feel the love you clearly have for each other.
I think another reason for my righteous rants, is that when I feel like that or think of things that way, there is no longer the risk of being hurt. I feel like it gives me my control back. I can tell myself I am better off and then the outcome is not so hard.
Especially now. In October when he told me no chance for reconciliation, I had given up hope and accepted that I would move on. The worst was over. Now that there is a chance for reconciliation there is also a chance for another wave of rejection and abandonment.
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015
