Late to the game-2

[Free]

Tx,
Wow. Everything you said has gone through my mind in the last week. Conflicting thoughts are constantly there.
I do not think of myself as a quitter. I just know me well enough to know that I could not live with the thoughts of what she has done.
It would haunt me forever. Maybe it is pride? Jealousy?
In a perfect world, none of this would have ever happened. Nothing is perfect and nothing is forever. All innocence is gone.
I will not lie. I am a mess over this and it is because I still love my wife. I'm sure you learned long ago that it's possible to love and hate your W at the same time. The love I have for her will always be there. My problem is that the hate will always be there too. I'm not strong enough to get past this.
Someday, forgiveness may happen. Forgetting the details of what I have learned would be near impossible.
Maybe you are emotionally stronger than me? Maybe your love for your W is stronger than mine?
Whichever it is, I am happy that you are in a place where you have a choice in your M.
As far as dating, yeah... It is intriguing. I've met some new female friends both at the gym and through other friends. It has entered my mind since BD.
Right now, dating is not on my radar but I would be lying if I said I'm not looking forward to it.
Variety is the spice of life, right?
First things first. I need to get out of this with enough dough to at least have a mean bachelor pad.