Five Years Ago Today

[tadpole1025]

Hi everyone. Just wanted to come and update although there really isn't much new going on.

I still have a great relationship with my lady friend at work. It isn't a romantic relationship, but I'm happy with the way things are right now. Will it be romantic someday? I don't know and it really doesn't matter. Right now, I'm happy with the way it is.

S29 still isn't talking to XW.

Interesting: Since all of this began at the end of 2010, I've never heard anyone say what two of my sons BOTH told me on two separate occasions last week: both of them told me separately, that they don't think XW is happy.

Funny: On December 27th, XW texted sons to wish them Merry Christmas. TWO DAYS LATE. She did the same thing for New Year. On January 3rd, she texted them and wished them a Happy New Year. TWO DAYS LATE. I guess MLCers really do live in their own time zone, but TWO DAYS BEHIND????

I continue to do great at my job. My promotion happens on January 30th. I'll have 6 people under me and I'll be responsible for keeping over 8,000 television stations on the air and diagnosing and fixing problems when they go off the air. I've learned so much just in the last month while training.

I still continue to get physically sick whenever I see some poor animal suffering or being abused. I'm not sure why I'm like this now, but I've never been like this in the past. I get physically sick. It's weird. I want to get a dog when I get my own place, but I'm kind of afraid to. I'm afraid that I'll out-live it and have to deal with more sadness. I really can't take any more. It's kind of a crummy way to be, but that's me right now.

I'm talking to my sons next week in a "family meeting." We need to start making plans to move. I REALLY need my own place, but am also afraid of that as well. I've never been on my own. Went from living with parents to being married. I'm single now, but have 3 of my sons living with me. It's time for them to grow up and be men and it's time for me to be a man as well. I want my own place, but am also so afraid.

Anyways, that's it for now.

Tad