B's 10-Week Bootcamp

[Bfice3]

quit looking at your wife's match.com profile!

it helped my positive outlook a lot!

I know...I need to remember that its only hurting me. Its hard though. I have stopped looking at facebook and her email. Though, I realized too from looking at match.com that she has to have another email account because she isn't getting any notifications at all from match.com and well...yeah. So, just in general she has been way more secretive and hidden about everything she is doing than I truly ever expected her to be capable of.

So, did she bring your son to the doctor yesterday, or did you end up doing that too?

Ha. Well, she did bring him to the doctor. However, she has totally checked out on being a parent because she let all of the kids stay home from school rather than being bothered to bring them and pick them up. Unreal, and completely hypocritical.

they both told me that they were proud of me! Flabbergasted

That must have been a very nice feeling RosaLinda! I'm sure you weren't doing it for those reasons, and that's where I'm trying to be also. I want to be there for my kids because I love them and I want them to be happy, not because I'm seeking some sort of notion of winning this separation/divorce/whatever-it-is.

Bet THAT made her head spin in surprise

It felt really good and it hurt all at the same time. Its so bizarre how codependent I am on her. I know I didn't deserve to be talked to the way she talked to me. Yet she did. And yet I walked away and all this week I keep trying to find justification in my head on how I don't deserve to be talked to like that.

---Your last paragraph I can't quote and comment on because I have to protect my E identity and not cry online, lol. Though, thank you RosaLinda, so much. Its a very unusual feeling to have a complete stranger say and mean something more than a woman I've been married to for almost 16 years. So, thank you again, and I hope life is treating you well!