Ah, Becky - I feel your pain. My D date is fast approaching. We're just ironing out the details.
I ordered the book you recommended. It is helpful, and I'm getting some good insight. It just feels so hopeless now. Everyone in those groups? Husband is gone forever. I still had a tiny little ember of hope that is getting harder and harder to keep lit.
More processing to do, I guess. Thanks for the update! I've been thinking of you.