Di-mond - thank you so much for your encouragement. I'm finally beginning to believe I'll be okay. I believe I have it in me to do what I need to do. That is HUGE! A few months ago, I was helpless and feeling lost.
Now, I have a loose plan, and am taking steps to make it a bit firmer, so that I can live the life I want. I'm still missing old H. New one wants to be "friends" - I'm not sure how I feel about that, truly. I told him friends don't treat one another as badly as he has treated me, and he had a fit. He doesn't think he's treated me badly.
I chalk that up to typical MLC craziness. He destroyed my family, hurt me and my children, lied to us all, and seems content in his new life. What do we need to be "friends" for? So that he can see the hurt on my face, and feed his ego with it.
I don't know. I'm not making a decision right now. I' wait until I'm on my own. My gut says "he's lost me". I know for sure he's lost me on any meaningful level. That man owes me apologies - big ones! I don't want to be a passenger on his MLC crazy-train. I'd rather quietly be doing my own thing, healing, getting better.
I do understand you missing someone to cheer you on. I believe you're doing fantastically well! I am so proud of you, and so happy for you. You give me hope.
