Rollercoaster: Now what?

[NYGal]

Thanks, inpain. Guilt. That's what I need to hear. I couldn't think of a reason. I keep thinking she secretly wants me back, or might one day. I have to remind myself that right now she isn't herself. And right now she doesn't want me. But she tortured me for two months while she tried to decide between the two of us. She only once said if we break up, that's it, forever. I think she was trying it on for size. Because she hasn't said it recently.

And bottom line, I know we don't know what the future holds.

Thanks for the hugs.