That would be great Rouky! Do you think our Hs would manage to be with our kids at the same times so we can do that? Mine has broken yet another promise to see them tonight and he promised to help D with something so she's been very upset. S11 has had lots of what I can only describe as tantrums tonight. All three of us are clearly struggling under the strain of this. Want to slap mine and make him come to his senses too. I have found out last night that he paid for his mail to be redirected at the beginning of December! While he was still saying to me that he was undecided. Yet more tears. I'm sorry you've been a mess these last two weeks too. I wouldn't wish this on anybody. It is a living torture every single day. I know I must do the same, accept that it's over but I am really struggling to do that. We have been through so much and I have forgiven so much over the years and now HE'S the one who is done!?!?! I still think I'm going to pinch myself and it's all a nightmare. Why can't I wake up from it?