Leap Year

[beckyb]

Update: I have been posting here and there for a while but here is an update on my situation.

My H and his L have my proposal. H is still submitting accurate financial information. Our court dates were cancelled due to the judge's schedule and likely won't happen until early March. So,unfortunatley there is no sense of urgency for H.

I have no idea what his response will be, or when but I'm really ok no matter what. Unless the judge is completely crazy the worst-case scenario will still be tolerable, though hard to swallow. I'm no longer stressing about it. It is out of my hands now. And God has always provided more than enough for me.

I am dreading the whole legal process, selling a house, filing taxes and all that stuff. Can't wait for it to be over.

I accept that my marriage is over. I don't think any amount of DBing will change that. My goal is to get through this with grace and mercy.

My feelings toward H are mixed. I am disappointed, puzzled and sometimes angry at what he has done. I also feel sorry for him. He is not happy, he is not healthy. He is very far from God. I pray for him and I pray that I will be able to forgive.

This weekend is the 1 year anniversary of his father's death. Today I sent him a text saying I was praying for him as he deals with this. No agenda. No ulterior motive. He said Thank You.

I've been gaining insight into a lot of other things in my life that I will start to share. From now on my updates will be in Surviving the Big D.