Late to the game-2

[Free]

"Bad" is putting it lightly. It is devastating.
And, on top of it all, I paid a small fortune to find out the truth.
I know I shouldn't guess at anything, but I want to believe that this a$$wipe OM lives with his mother and does not own a car. F'ing loser.
Also, the thought of this man anywhere near my kids in the future is killing me.
God, there are so many thoughts running through my head. It hurts.
In the last week, I find myself thinking back to everything negative my W has said and done since BD, and before. It strengthens my resolve to let go and reinforces the need to get away from her.
Thank God for this site. I'm not at the point of telling any of this to my family or friends. At least this forum allows me to unleash my thoughts and not explode.
It's days like today where it is difficult to function normally or even breathe. Fortunately (or unfortunately), I've been here numerous times before and lived to see the next day.
At some point, I will be ok.
Sorry for the rant.