Nobody Can Drag Me Down

[Georgiabelle]

Hi Everyone,

Happy 2016! I am determined to make this a fantastic year and I have to say life is pretty good.

My fur boy has a large growth. Vet kept saying it was harmless and it became so large I was referred to a specialist(same place x Mr. GB's gf goes to school. Oh the irony!). At first they said cancer (my intuition did not agree so I asked for a biopsy) which showed a very healthy dog with no sign of cancer and a giant growth. I don't know what is going to happen with my fur pup, but I do know this. He has been a blessing and I have been fortunate to have him by my side all of these years. If indeed, it is his time, I will be devastated and will have 3 devastated kids. However, we love furry people and will open our home to another that needs a home. For me, life is kinda blah with out animals.

Otherwise, things are going okay. Ex Mr. GB and I are cordial. If I ever allow myself to think, "how did this...???" I stop. Why? Because it is a waste of time. I wish nothing bad for him, however, I am happy to not "feel" responsible for what he does or says. His choices-his consequences. Same goes for me.

D is a cheerleader. S12 plays baseball and my s5 is the ultimate snuggle bug. Couple of dark days over the holidays but eh, holidays do that in general. X Mr. Gb's parents came for a visit last week and we had fun. He hasn't spoken to them in almost 2 years now, and well, that's his deal.

I read here every few days. I don't always respond. I remember when I first came here, I got the impression that some people here felt the need to take the blame for everything in their M. I think I realized that, yes, I was not perfect. There are things I certainly did wrong. However, some of x Mr. GB's complaints were garbage. I think I am better (although some of my friends don't get why I won't date. You need companionship! Put yourself out there! Etc) and I am finally secure in one aspect of my life. I don't owe anyone an explanation for why I don't do things in my life. I live my life, work, go out with friends, enjoy my children, and am just trying to relish the good stuff. I'm hardly a recluse and I have tons of male friends. I know how to interact with males:)

I know people mean well, and I am non committal to why I feel the way I do about relationships for myself. I am genuinely happy for people on anniversaries and engagements. However, I really don't think about that for myself. Everything is fluid and I know it could change. However, for now, I am just going to focus on me and my people.

A powerball win would have been nice, but eh....Hugs to everyone.