Trumpet, I don't know if I would call my willingness to D her a bomb. W will probably be happy that I am for it. The bomb for her will happen when the mediation process begins. In her mind, life will go on as-is, just without me. She has said that to me and others. I cannot explain how off center W is on this. Everything for both of us will be different, not just me. It's funny. The day of the first BD, W stated that she thought I would be happy about ending our M. That thinking was wrong then and still wrong now. I find no happiness in any of this. I am angry and miserable about all of it, but I've come to terms with the fact that it's over. SciDad, Strength, clarity and purpose. Those are three attributes I need more of at the moment. I'm working on it.
Me-40's W- 40's Married 22, Together 29 BD#1- 6/15 W needs space BD#2- OM confirmed PA 1/8/16 Still both home, but not for long
