I use Covenant Eyes on my phone and PC... have since discovering the affair and quitting porn cold turkey. Day 76 for me - yay!
She knows this. She's getting reports. This did have an impact when she's willing and wanting to talk with me. Her interest in me was different - asking questions about me and abstaining from all sexual contact, including masturbation. My addiction is something I take seriously, but in the questions she asked, I could tell I moved up the respect ladder with her - and it got her thinking about intimacy with me. I repulsed her, as she always thought about me and porn.
She has her own issues with self-image, and very low libido. I'm working through my struggles, and praying that if God wants me to live in a sexless marriage, that I accept it, and continue to reconcile. It might just be that way - my wife sees no issue with zero intimacy. Yes, the Bible says this, that, all the marriage websites say to just do it, but to her, it's icky and gross, and she might not ever get over it. I have to accept that.
M46, EXWW46 M15 T17 D20, S19, D13 M - Addiction since 1998 W EA/PA #1 2013/2014 W EA #2 June 2015... BD 1 Big D talk 9/15 BD 2 - EA/PA disc 10/30/15 Served D 1/22/16 Divorced 5/25/16 (yes, that fast!)
