Doing somewhat better today. Last night was rough. I was bored and scrolling through FB and a mutual friend posted something along the lines of "Life gets better when you stop chasing someone that doesn't care about you." It made me stop and think a bit, and I then saw that XW had "liked" it. I truly hope that she doesn't see me in that way. I love her more than life, even when I wasn't able to show it. Then I received a message from a friend... "remember, this isn't about you, it's all about her." That is so true, and I needed to be reminded of it.
I need to somehow remember that every day. I think it can go a long way for me. There is nothing I can do to show her anything. She has to do some work for herself, on herself. I am doing mine. It's all I can do. Better myself and be a great dad to my boys. I need to tattoo that in my brain...
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
