Ancaire said something in her post, about the whisper of depression telling me "I can't". It rang very true.
Eery time I think about things I am interested in, cycling, music or art or anything for that matter, and I think about maybe taking a night class or joining a group. I make all of the enquiries for when and where and how. And then I stop. I can't take the next step.
All I hear in my mind are "you can't". I feel so stuck that I can't widen my life to new experiences because I so scared.
How do other people do this. How do you go to your dancing? How do you take on something knew and be ok with doing it infront of other people. Talking to people you have no connection with.
Sometimes I wonder how I get myself out the door in the morning. Lol
