My new thread 1

[Tyler12]

Thanks vise, each day is a new challenge. Some are better than others.
I tell myself why worry because she doesn't care. If she did she would ask how my day was( she is starting to). Talk about things other than her moving plans and life after Us ( also way way down from the way it used to be. Mostly because I told her if she still cares like she says she does she would see that it isn't something I want to talk about and to respect that).
What makes it tough is when she does things that make me wonder wtf. In which case I say thank you for that and leave it there. Ex. I had a container in my bag for lunch yesterday. It had rice and a sauce in it. Well the container opened and there was food everywhere inside my bag. I opened my bag at home to see this mess and just sighed and dropped my head, we both had a laugh at the misfortune because it sucked and it was funny. At which point she took the bag and cleaned it all out. Without me asking or her making it a point that she was doing it to look after me. Just picked it up and started cleaning it. I said you don't have to do that its my mess. It's fine I got it. Ok thank you. And that was that.
It's times like that that mess with my head and wonder what is going on. Her cleaning my backpack out doesn't mean she loves me again and is going to stay. Yet she didn't have to do it either