Hi I am new here also and i feel for you. My story is a bit different but its still one of losing my loved one, fear and anger
What [censored] is you can't control what he does, thinks and his actions. I am only a few days into this (DB) and it is hard. I want to text her when she isn't around and hope for that magic text or call or discussion that she is confused and wants to work on things.
But I would only try to recommend as a newbie that you read the stories and posts here as I have been doing myself now for the past few weeks and try to stay strong. Do other things, love your family and maybe one day he wakes up and understands the vow he made and that the grass isn't greener
Its' easy to run and flee ....what is harder and more work is fully working on a marriage
_________________________ Me-48 Spouse-WAW 52 Married for 10 years D7 ILYBNILWY 7/15 Suspect EA/PA 12/15 No confirmation/denial She files 1/2016 Working towards the Big D ...still in progress....