Back to square one, not sure I can do this again!

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NyGal, nor sure exactly what I would say, but I would say SOMETHING! I watched her waltz in and was still wiping my tears from having the rug pulled out from under me the second time, when I saw her the only thing I could do watch her walk past me and then when H walked over to me I just shook my head, looked down and the floor and said in a voice so soft that he probably barely even heard me "Really? Is this why you wanted me to leave?" I actually went out to my car to leave, but then went right back in the house because it's MY house and MY H and SHE should be leaving, not ME. But, once I went back in and walked up to H, I just stood there in shock and froze. It was like I was frozen with my feet glued to the floor and I couldn't have come up with a lucid thought if I had to. I just stood there with my mind going about a thousand miles an hour, but completely unable to come up with a single thought or word.

I am a nice person. Not just saying that, I really am. I NEVER set out to hurt anyone. I would go out of my way and hurt myself before causing someone else pain. That's just the way I have always been....passive and easy going. So, for her to come into the house just to hurt me, is something I just can't understand and certainly didn't deserve.

I wish that, at the very least, I had put my arms around H and then asked her why she was in MY house. Why she was calling and texting MY H. Something. I just wished I could have said SOMETHING! She must have thought that I was a totally pathetic person to not say anything while she tries to walk away with my H.