Reading over the last page of your sitch I saw similarities in our fear of abandonment. It sure does real havoc when it plays itself out in a relationship.
I also saw that you will be going to a support group at church. Hope that goes well for you. I'm planning to do the same tomorrow evening.
Me:44 W:38 T:10.5 M:7.5 D:3 BD: 7/2015 W moves out of MBR: 9/2015 WW files for D: 2/8/2016