And then there's this possibility - What if I'd been contacting another man? He'd have flipped a lid! He's made it clear I'm not to be with anyone else. Just another aspect of "owning" me. He doesn't want me, but that doesn't mean he wants someone else to have me, either.
Remember the night that I got H to drive me home after my car battery went out, then I did ALL the wrong DB things while I had him trapped in his truck? Well, while I was asking him questions, making him feel extremely uncomfortable and very annoyed while pushing him away as far as I could, I asked him several questions and pushed him until he finally told me that he doesn't want to be married to me. So, I asked him if he was telling me that he wants me to move on and start dating and find another man. He just sat there in silence for a few minutes, then just looked at me completely expressionless and very quietly said "well, I guess you've got to do whatever you feel like you have to do." And, that was that. I know that he doesn't want me to move on, but he wouldn't say it.
The part where he said he doesn't want to be married to me, I'm going to file that away under the category of "Believe nothing they say and only half of what they do." I wish he missed me and thought of me as much as I miss and think about him.
M:45 H:48 M:11 No kids BD:Sept'15 EA:Confirmed 1wk later PA: Oct'15 12 '15 2 wk R Just kidding, H wants NC 12 '15 H back w/OW 4 '15 R &still working on it
