I had a wonderful time with my daughters this past weekend. As soon as i opened the door my daughter recognized me immediately ran to me and screamed daddy!! she hugged me and i gave her one of the longest hugs i have ever given her. I kissed her repeatedly. Then i saw my other girl who is turning 1 next week, she immediately started kicking her legs of excitement , as small as she is she knows who i was. I wanted to cry. Wife was at work so her mother was the one present. I immediately took them to the closes mall and we had ice cream date , my 3 yr old had chocolate ice cream with gummy bears. I took them on the horses , and the playground. I also took them to the Disney store and just bought them toys. They both had fun. My daughter was extremely affectionate towards and kept hugging me repeatedly , something she didnt do often. I kept telling her i love her and she would tell me the same. On sunday i took them to church. My daughter didnt want to go to sunday school , which was weird because she used to like it. So i just took her to the worship room with me. After church on sunday we went to the indoor kids playground they have at the facility. we visited my mom as well. I saw my daughters different , theres just something in me that i just want to show them love and affection, something that was missing before because i was so focus on making more money in order to satisfy my W. I got my daughters to listen to worship songs while we drove in the car, and she loved them. God i just love my daughters soooooo much. I just had a blast and cant wait for next sat and celebrate my 1yr bday. Although on the drop offs i did see my W, she acted like nothing was happening, like nothing is hurting her , she acted like she is happy living at her moms and has moved on ( i saw that she doesnt wear her ring) It didnt bother me one bit.
Weird things i notice. On Sat when i was driving to my house with my daughters , randomly i hear my daughter say " mommy no pow pow", i though i heard wrong so i lowered the volume on my car and asked her to repeat it again, she said " mommy dont hit me" "mommy pow pow no". That just made me get deeply angry. This woman is manipulating my daughter to say this things. What kind of heart does she have to be damaging my daughter this way? But the weird thing was on that same day when i was driving to drop them off , my daughter asked me " daddy are you leaving?" i tell her yes baby i need to take you with mommy, she then replies with " no papi , mommy is not my friend" i ask her why do you say that ? she is your friend. she says " no she is not my friend she hits me". Again this is a 3 yr old guys. It just saddens me. Her poor Innocent soul. I love my girls to death. It just hurts me that they are having to go through this thanks to my b*** Wife.
On sunday when i dropped them off my w was talking to me about my daughters party and what plans she was thinking and what i think about it. I tell her that what ever she needs help in financially ill buy it. Even though she is only turning 1 i still want a small party for her. She agrees. I start saying bye to my daughters , and walk out the door. My wife then says hey just so you know you are more then welcome to see them during the week, as long as we can get along and not be in battle i have no problem. she then says " I dont have any grudges against you at all". When i heard that inside me i was cussing her out. How dare she says that? she is the one that has made me go through living hell these 4 months. Abandoning me , taking my daughters to a shelter for 1 month , keeping my daughters away from me for 4 months!!!!! aarrrrrhh!! i just wantd to call her a B******. But i didnt, i just said "ok thankyou". The old me would have gone into defense mode, but i didnt.
