As each day passes I become more worried that no matter how well I follow the DB guidelines, the further apart my wife and I are drifting. It's so hard for me to not show her any affection. I know if I do it will continue to push her away.
I decided that part of met GAL was to become the best me I can be. I recently joined a gym but felt I needed an extra push to become a better man. I weighed the options and decided that hiring a personal trainer will jump start my transition and get me on the fast track to become healthy and more attractive.
I also want to become more attractive on the inside. How can I do this when we don't really talk.
Another aspect of my situation is the fact that the man whom I believe is having an emotional affair(possibly physical) with my wife, has a son who is on the same hockey team as my oldest boy. I deliberately avoid all contact with him. I keep my distance because I have absolutely no desire to talk to him or even be near him. He always seems to gravitate to my wife. When I see him approach I find something else to do or some other parents who are not nearby to talk to. I can honestly say I have never hated any one until this realization came to fruition.
Am I doing the right thing. I think it makes me look somewhat childish. I am sure my wife has noticed but has not confronted me about my lack of socializing with the OM and his spouse. The thing that baffles me is his wife has no clue. She may also be in the group with her husband while conversing with my wife. I refuse to put up a false appearance and be near him. Any suggestions?
I refuse to give up. I believe our marriage can be saved. My wife is so focused on the problems and has never tried to work on solutions. I know I can't bring up the R in our limited conversations. It's just so frustrating that I have things to say that I think should be said. I have less than 6 months to prove my worth to my wife. I think I'm failing.
Don't count the days, make the days count. Mohammad Ali
