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[beckyb]

Thanks for your response. I am a very strong and resilient person, sometimes too strong. I will be ok no matter what. That's not really the issue.

I am examining my life and trying to make some changes. STBX and I don't communicate much, so not much room to improve. I'be been so concerned about not pursing, going dark etc. I don't communicate. Now I'm ready to say "screw it" and do what I want.

I believe all the stuff you described is great but it's not DB. It's becoming a better person. To me, if you no longer have a goal of saving the the marriage it's not DB. Some of the concepts transfer but it's different.

I am realizing there is no hope for the marriage but it doesn't feel right just letting it go, even though it's out of my hands.

Right now I have my hands full getting my house ready to sell and dealing with the settlement. I'm staying busy no big new things right now.

Kind of rambling.