Kyrie, take some time. Let it sink in. It is a journey and it takes awhile to grasp these concepts. Take a deep breath and just sit with these ideas for a while. Read and re-read the advice people have given you. It's ok, you don't need to respond immediately, you don't need to defend or explain yourself or find the answer tonight.
I think you are reacting on this forum the same way you react with your H. Take some time, slow it down, its ok. We aren't going anywhere, we will be here tomorrow and next week and next month and heck, half of us will still be here next year because this is a long journey. Slow down and let it sink in.
