Hi Rouky, thanks for checking on me. It really means a lot to me! A few hours ago I would have answered that I was feeling sad and exhausted with it all, but I have to say that I am hopeful but trying to tell myself not to be, and terribly confused!
On Sunday night when H left he said he could take D to school today and tomorrow. This morning it was almost time for me to leave for work and he still hadn't showed. Then I got a text from him asking who was taking her to school! I replied that I thought he was and so he came round straight away and said that he didn't know I'd actually agreed to it!?!?! (I said OK, that's fine, when he'd said it on Sunday so not sure how he didn't know).
He also picked her up from school and I have to work late on Tuesdays so it was teatime by the time I got home. I walked in to find that the hoovering had been done throughout the whole house and there was a delicious smell coming from the kitchen. H was cooking a roast dinner! I busied myself upstairs for ten minutes or so and then came back down and asked if he had hoovered. He grinned and said he couldn't believe how long it took me to notice. I carried on busying myself with laundry wondering what on earth was going on in his head. About an hour after I got in the roast was ready and H called me into the kitchen asking if I could help serve it up. We served it up together - it was like old times. H put a film on for us to watch while we were eating and he stayed after it had finished, right up to S's bedtime. Throughout the film he was very chatty with me, talking about what happens in the film as it is one we've watched before. He also talked to me about his work and a few things that are going on there. When he left I thanked him again for cooking tea and doing the hoovering and he said, "You're welcome." It is all just so bizarre!
