G8r. Thanks for the support! I wasn't looking for a reason to give the "fired" speech. It just came up. Reality is setting in with her packing and moving out this weekend. I won't be able to show her my changes in a daily basis and hope she comes to me. If she was thinking straight instead of just trying to escape it would be easier on my mind. As right now she has her condo set up to move into. But she has left herself 5 evenings to pack all her stuff and though she has several "promising" interviews and has had some. She doesn't have a job to go to when she lives there. Who knows how long she will live there before she gets something. And that's on her. But she will have the boys and that's what worries me. If I was able to go to school and have the boys at the same time I would. Right now if I did keep them here( which she would fight me hard over) I would only see them 2-3 hours a day and that's not fair to them. Conversely this gives me time to think of myself. To do things myself. To focus on my studies and GAL without the worry of her judging or any walking on eggshells. The biggest issue I am foreseeing is the lack of companionship. That is a fear of mine I have to overcome. Will her moving away fix anything between us? Maybe in time. But that's not the focus anymore. I can't hold onto the hope of M as it very well could be done and I am working to accept that.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
