Some of you hav mentioned taking time for healing. I guess I don't know how to heal *completely* without either ending it or his apology. It is fake without one of those. Vanilla, walking away fuels his rage big time. Been there, done that. That's why he'll wake me in the middle of the night to spew at me. For the most part the girls are shielded from the brunt of the spewing. They sense the tension and some things but not the truth.
Me: 42, H: 38 Married: 12 years (second M for me) 14D, 9D 2015 EA (PA??), porn addict, *pastor/counselor* MLC
At a counselor, he said he wanted the marriage but not to work on himself w/a IC. Piecing?
