Another day at work. Came home, sister had given me a gift card to Kohl's, so I went and got some new clothes. Getting thinner, back down to my weight at the age of 26. Got a random call out of nowhere from WW, didn't leave a VM, just sent me a text that she accidentally dialed. Miss my little one again tonight. I have no idea why W hasn't filed. I've really expected it by now. I almost welcome it. I need a mercy killing.
Me:36 W: 27 D2 T10 M:2.5 Filed D 1/14/16 BD: Sep 15 A Discovered: 11/17/15 She moves out 11/19/15
Giving blood at work today. Apparently they want a double dose from me. Sitting here today, I'm very apathetic about my relationship. I do have a meetup tonight with a divorce and relationship recovery group. It's my first time, and excited to meet a different group of people. Still NC with wife besides about daughter
Me:36 W: 27 D2 T10 M:2.5 Filed D 1/14/16 BD: Sep 15 A Discovered: 11/17/15 She moves out 11/19/15
I have just caught up with you story. In my opinion WS don't file because it is too expensive or they are expecting us to do it as they don't want to take the responsibility to definitively breaking up their family. Personally I think it's coward of them. I know it's hard and I don't have a magic solution but look after yourself. Put your yourself first, go out with your friends when you don't have your daughter!
I agree. It is cowardice. I also believe she ALREADY broke up the family. Just doesn't have the guts to let me go. Every day I dint think I want this marriage. I don't want to continue to be a doormat while she indiscriminately dates. I have no love for her in my heart. She's cheated too many times, and I'm just sick of it. I do my own thing when daughter isn't with me. But, I don't need that piece of paper with hers and my name on it anymore.
Me:36 W: 27 D2 T10 M:2.5 Filed D 1/14/16 BD: Sep 15 A Discovered: 11/17/15 She moves out 11/19/15
Just updating. Regular old days. Daughter is with me for the next few days, which is going to be great. Have an appt with a L tomorrow through my work legal needs, went to a group last night for divorce and relationship recovery. Was a good night talking to other people who have been in the same boat.
Me:36 W: 27 D2 T10 M:2.5 Filed D 1/14/16 BD: Sep 15 A Discovered: 11/17/15 She moves out 11/19/15
Journaling. Went to tumbling tonight with daughter. We go every wed. W always comes to show support. She doesn't look very ecstatic tonight. Still had all her makeup on. Didn't look very happy. I felt great. Looked like I was 26 again. Payed and jumped around with D2 lots. At the end, she walked D2 out to car with me, picked her up, gave her a hug, and then looked like she might cry. Oh well. Came home, made the kiddo dinner, and I ate. And then we shared a cupcake. Got the day off tomorrow. Have a L appt at 3. Little nervous, but honestly been feeling okay about things.
Me:36 W: 27 D2 T10 M:2.5 Filed D 1/14/16 BD: Sep 15 A Discovered: 11/17/15 She moves out 11/19/15
Did you ever send the text? If she's moving out, is it with OM#2?
M46, EXWW46 M15 T17 D20, S19, D13 M - Addiction since 1998 W EA/PA #1 2013/2014 W EA #2 June 2015... BD 1 Big D talk 9/15 BD 2 - EA/PA disc 10/30/15 Served D 1/22/16 Divorced 5/25/16 (yes, that fast!)
She's already moved out. Has been since nov. The only text I sent is that we needed to stay out of each other's space for awhile, and we're basically NC except for stuff about daughter.
Me:36 W: 27 D2 T10 M:2.5 Filed D 1/14/16 BD: Sep 15 A Discovered: 11/17/15 She moves out 11/19/15
Some very weird goings on last night. I was checking around on my facebook, and started getting IM's from a guy that my W works with that I have a loose friendship with. She talks to him everyday, even text messages him. He started asking me how I was doing, and how i was feeling. I asked him why he would ask. Said he knew the whole story from my W. I say, I'm surprised she told you. He started talking about how I needed to take care of me, and my kid. Maybe it was time I moved on blah blah blah. Said he wasn't going to get in between the two of us. I point blank asked if she had put him up to this, and he says no, I just saw you on. I don't believe it personally.
We haven't been talking much, and I think she doesn't have any way of knowing what I'm doing anymore. So she's trying to get someone to recon me for her. Seems very high schoolish to me. She doesn't know what I'm planning. She may be worried, and thinking that she needs to get to the D table before me. Very much have any doubts this is fixable anymore. I think the W has made her decision she wants to move on. Emotionally I have nothing in me for her at this point. Have the L appt this afternoon.
Me:36 W: 27 D2 T10 M:2.5 Filed D 1/14/16 BD: Sep 15 A Discovered: 11/17/15 She moves out 11/19/15
Do you want to burn the reconciliation bridge? Leave some of it standing?
M46, EXWW46 M15 T17 D20, S19, D13 M - Addiction since 1998 W EA/PA #1 2013/2014 W EA #2 June 2015... BD 1 Big D talk 9/15 BD 2 - EA/PA disc 10/30/15 Served D 1/22/16 Divorced 5/25/16 (yes, that fast!)
