I am catching up with as much as I can after having been off the bb for over a month....The difference in my perception after this time off is astounding.....
Life just wasn't meant to be lived in a quagmire of uncertainty and doubt......it goes by very fast and we must make every attempt to be true to ourselves...our values...our goals...and our dreams.......Don't sell yourself short....you deserve a great time and a beautiful life.
You are riding the rollercoaster and hanging on SOOOO well...that you probably don't even realize it!
I have this vision of you on the "Thunderbolt" with your hair whipping around your head and a look of sheer panic on your face, you mouth is open as thought you are screaming but there is no sound coming out!
Be assured that there are ups and downs and the ride will end..........in a slower and calmer pace than it started.
You are doing so well......
Just keep your focus on you and not on him.....because you would never be able to figure out from moment to moment what is in his head...even if all was well between you....you would never know every thought in his head...so don't try.
Enjoy the ride as much as possible, keep the positives in mind and give yourself permission to be who you want to be... I am so proud of you.....and I know you have no idea what a great person you are......I hope by my telling you what I see you might see a little of that too...
