Eyes are sparkling and hair is gleaming... I look really, really good. He's studiously avoiding looking at me! LOL
HAHA Let him NOT look at you. The damage has been done baby, your image is in his mind even if he turns his eyes.
Focus on you. Ignore him. It does not matter to you what he thinks or feels. It only matters what you think and feel.
Also, I have to warn you. I know you still want old H back. We LBS lie to ourselves just as much as our WAS lie to us. Our traitor minds keep offering us pictures of our old S's. I PROMISE he was never as good as your mind is portaying him to have been.
IF (7 years from now) he changes his mind, asks to come home, and you allow it, be warned that if he does anything human, like make a mistake, it will clash terribly with this image you have built of how great he can be. This clash will send huge cracks down your M foundation. "Should I have DBed?" You can prevent this by not letting your mind lie to you for the next few year. You H was a jerk, we all are because we are human. Look at him clearly for the hot mess he is and always was. Because that is the human that will eventually come back to you.
You are doing SOOOO freaking well Judy! How did your heart handle the mirror?
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
