Everything went so well yesterday. I have long,straight hair, so I never curl it because it takes forever. Yesterday I took the time, and it turned out great. Me and the girls were sitting around the kitchen table, and a curl fell over my eye. I flipped it out of my way and D15 says "Mom, you should flip your hair like that at least once every 3 seconds."
Me"Why?"
D15: You look so beautiful when you do that
Wow...
My mother suggested i cook her pork chops, linguini Alfredo and corn for lunch. I grumbled under my breath, because she has not cooked a meal since I moved in 2 months ago, but I cooked her a full dinner for lunch. The house smelled amazing because of that.
My D 17 made me change into my skinny jeans when she saw my outfit. So I had those rolled up at the bottom because I had brown ankle boots on with very high heels. Then I wore this white shirt that sort of hung off the shoulders. It was a very very tiny bit see through, but only when I moved around. My makeup was flawless.
I put this outfit on because we were leaving for bowling. I knew H was coming over but I gave up hope he world show before I left. He showed, lol. His eyes almost bugged out of his head when he saw me. Then I stood up to get out of my mom's way, and my shirt moved, lol. All of a sudden I was towering over him because of the heels.
He went into the garage and me and D15 went to the kitchen to wash lunch dishes together. Yes, I made her stay with me because I am a fraidy-cat. But we sang Love Yourself by Justin Beiber while we washed the dishes. H was 10 feet away. We sounded cute. Then me and my mom left.
It could not have gone any better.
But my real fun did not begin until I hit the lanes. I did equally as bad as everyone, and we laughed and cheered and high-fived for a few hours. I had so much fun. Then we went to one of the lady's houses and made a ton of food and mixed drinks and talked. Before I knew it, it was 9:30 PM!
But it is sunday, so I am back alone until Friday again. I am okay with that,I could use some quiet time today.
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
Me: 32 W: 29 T:8 M: 6 D4 S2 M - 8/2008 W is not happy - 1/2014 W wants D - 9/2014 W moved out - 11/2014 D filed - 1/23/2015 D'ed - 2/25/2015 Gave X the Letter - 11/10/2015
I so very happy that joy has come to your life. Your outer beauty is only surpassed by your inner beauty. Be well and know good things will continue to come your way.
Well, what's the verdict on the roof? Did your runaway h fix the electrical issues for you and your family. I'm sure he had to put his eyes back into the sockets before he could do any work. LOL!
You did great! Keep up the good work.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Mona - my dear, you asked for a 2x4. I'm not going to give you one. Why? You've already identified the problem. You don't need it pointed out to you, and you don't need someone to say, "bad, Mona!" You've already done that. If you need someone to back you up and say, "Mona, I'm really proud of you. You spotted a potential problem before it became a reality, and you know what you need to do to avoid it. I have complete faith in your ability to handle it on your own" - well, I'm your girl!
It sounds like you were hot, hot, hot this weekend. I love it! Good for you. Once again you've fired up my determination to do what I need to do in order to have some healthy self-esteem again. I know I'm a good person. I just know I could look a lot better - but the good news is, I know how to achieve that, and I'm willing to do it. I'd like my outside to radiate what is on the inside - in some aspects, I do that, but I'd love to look in the mirror, and say, "Damn! You look great." It's been a while...I'm going to get there again.
I am so thankful that you rejoined this board, even while I'm sorry that you had to. You've been such a bright spot in my life, and you are a fine example to the rest of us as to what we should be doing. You've also got tons of experience to share from your last time being here - all of which I am so very thankful for. It would be a sad, sad day for me if you were to stop participating here, and I know others feel that way, too.
Resign yourself to posting regularly...lol You're needed here.
Mona, you are motivating me to look cuter. I wish I knew you in real life, I need a girl friend to help me shop. I am glad you are having so much fun, I wish I had a group to hang with, but I'm not exactly single, and I'm not exactly separated, and my married friends are fun but just so couple-y. Although I do have some girls nights out planned.
OK, tell me where to shop. I am in my mid-40's and it seems like everything is either kind of teenager-ish or old lady-ish.
Judy, girls night out! Shopping trips! Elton John! You can teach me the guitar! Come and be my bff! I am loads of fun but I fall asleep by 10 pm and I mostly shop at thrift shops! Which for me is fun, I love a bargain. We can take a road trip to visit Mona and crash one of her super fun dances. Then head up to Mutatio's for his royal treatment day. But for now maybe you can spy on my H, he is not far from you for the next 6 months. Snooping doesn't count if a friend does it for you, right?
Judy, looking in the mirror and thinking wow is nice. It is superficial and does not solve any problems, except mentally you get a tiny boost. It is way more important to look at your inside and say WOWOWOWOWOW. You can get there, just forget about H for a while. You have big days coming up and once you focus on those you will find it way easier to forget about H. Then, you will look back and say WOW, I did that!
Fo, I see the same thing! Clothes for elderly or clothes for 20 somethings... I say dive into the 20's rack! the 1980's are dead, we are never gonna have style like we did back then, lol
About my dances, I am afraid if you go you will be surprised. They are not full of cool,great looking, young people. It is just a local bar and most of the people are on medicare, lol. I have so much fun because I am bound and determined to go out and have so much fun. There are one or 2 others that are obsessed with laughter, and we sort of pull in others to us like gravity. Now, I see these other people smashing out of their shells right in front of me. I dont have fun because it is fun there. It is fun there because I have fun. Does that make any sense? Because if that makes any sense, then you can easily do the same thing.
Stop by your local bar for one drink every Monday (or pick any day) You have to go in on the same day every week at first, because that way you will run into the same people. You can chat with the bar tender. They are there to chat with you, so you dont have to feel lonely. Tip the bar tender well. Like very well. He or she will take care of you, introduce you to the regulars, etc if you take care of them. Soon you will be talking to the regulars. Soon when you walk in, they will call out your name
You now have an instant group of friends who know you. Take what you get, even grumpy people can make the night fun. Have fun no matter who your group is. If you like to dance, go to a bar that has bands or DJ's.
I hear you when you say you cant go out with singles because you are not single and you cant go out with married couples because it is just weird. But ignore both of those reasons why you cant go out for now. They feel real, but they are not real. You can push past that as easy as pushing through a spider web. And lastly, no matter what is happening, SMILE, HUGELY. When you have a huge smile plastered on, everyone around you smiles. Then laughs
job, my jerkface tried to weasel out of helping. I took off on Monday because my mom had eye surgery. All went well. He was supposed to come over at noon. He texted me "I am exhausted, can I do this tomorrow?" Me "No, I took off work to get this done today."
He came over, changed a fuse and everything is working now. We have a professional (and cute) roofer coming to fix the roof. I might take off work so I can watch... I mean be there if he needs help. As for my H, I think as far as DB'ing I was spot on, but I am not really worried. I looked pretty because I was going to the bowling alley. I sang with my D because that is what we do together all the time. The house smelled great because I am a good cook. None of it was staged for jerkface and as soon as I hit the lanes I forgot all about him.
I went to a friends house last night and we had a nice, relaxing evening. I even listened to Country music (ugh) and kinda liked it (UUGGHH). My H occupied no space in my head and I was able to just enjoy myself. I love love love when I meet a kind person and the person I was with is just kind. I cant think of another, better word. My kids did not send me even one text message and I was gone from 6:00 pm to 11:00 pm. That was unbelievable and much needed.
mut, thank you as always for such kind words. Every time you post I am touched and it makes me bolder, more capable of going forward.
mahhhty I wish you were there too! I just know that if we all got together it would be amazing. No group of people in the world would not only have fun, but truly appreciate the joy of the moment like we could.
Gmum, sounds like you are down. I will pop over to your thread in a few to see what is going on
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
