Separated for 15 months now

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I have been separated for a year and a half now, and I still want to save my marriage. There is still live there as she tells me she loves me, misses me, misses us and our family. It seems though that she only says this stuff when her and her boyfriend are having issues. Long story short

We separated in July 2014, her idea, I never wanted it. She started dating immediately and was soon in a relationship with her current boyfriend. A few months after they got together I had to deploy. At that time, I had also started a relationship. The night before I left for deployment, I went to spend some time with our daughters. She begged me not to go and see my girlfriend after that. It is a girl she hates. In my kind it was because of that hate for her that she did not want me to go. She cried and begged me not to go, but I went. After I got back from deployment, she told me that if I would have chose her instead of going to see my girlfriend, the marriage would have been saved. I had no idea, if she would have given a reason to believ, the I would have stayed that night. Those two weeks before I left all she did was tell me that she loved him, what was I supposed to think.

We have been intimate several times since we separated, the most recent one being months ago now.

So, she claims she misses us, again, when things re my good with her boyfriend. He has cheated on her several times and the girls he cheated on her with actually messaged her on Facebook. She says that she can not get that image of this night before I left out of her head, she can not forgive that.

I am still in my relationship, as is she. I am not happy in mine and feel that I just maintain it for the companionship.

She says the above image, she does not want to confuse our daughters or set a bad example for them by leaving him and coming back to me. That she is embarrassed, all of that kind of stuff.

I do not know what to do, we are still in love with each other, and I feel as it can still be saved. Is it too far gone? Should I just let her go? I am still in love with her and I it's her every single day.