Hi AnnaB...thanks for checking up on me. I had friends over for a few days and I slipped up. But I have been dark-ish for over a day again now. He is coming to see the kids. Coincidence?
I just want to get through his visit without messing things up. I don't care how much turmoil I am in. I can't keep letting him know it. He doesn't get the satisfaction of living like a carefree teenager while knowing I'm here cyring for and missing him
Well, he DOES get to know because I have told him over the past month but he doesn't get to keep having that mental picture. I have to stop. It's my own fault. I get weak at times.
