Thanks. I like the advice of praying before I respond to him. Especially because he so rarely checks on them these days that I want to scream when he does. It's as if he feels like he is doing some great thing sending a text every 2 to 3 days, when he would call and text dozens of times a day even when we were together and were only apart for 8 hours while he worked.
And it bothers me that he knows the kids are having a hard time. We went from being together all the time to barely ever. Their little world got torn apart and he doesn't care.
I do my best. I take them out. We play. We go to the park. We cuddle to watch movies. But mommy is not daddy. And to them the moon and the stars hang on daddy and his every word. I had a few slip ups. Had a few drinks with my friends while they were here. So text a few things I shouldn't have. But I'm back in the saddle the last day and a half. Not much but I have to start somewhere.
