I'm so glad you made it back to us and reached out for some support. You sound a lot more anchored in your sense of self. And reaping the rewards of NC. Seems you have what I like to call gumption. Tomorrow you just take everything you have been doing and maximise it.
Tomorrow is about faking it till you make it. My trick is when I am in rooms with hostile families is to pretend that on the inside I am tall solid tree. my based is large and round, so much do no human could warp their arms around me, my roots go deep down into the earth, they are strong that nothing can move this tree that I am, except of course for my long branches which stretch out to the freedom of the sky, where the gentle breeze lightly plays in my leaves.
Once you know that you are strong on the inside, a create of being my soft on the outside, think marshmellow, thing candy floss. Think balloons and kittens. This thought gives the impression of being open and non-threatening, but underneath you are strong, but flexiable. If you can hold these two experiences Ladybrd and you pull on everything to get through this NC phase. You will be sweet!
We are all hear cheering you on.
Lots of love. I will be thinking about you if I am not asleep.
