Vinlad posted this MLC, but thought I could use the same advice. I seem to be focussing too much on what happened a YEAR ago when there is absolutely nothing I can do about the past. Need to focus on me, now and today!
Basically the Lord has told me that MY DESTINY IS NOT THE PIT.
Your destiny is not where you are at right now and you are not alone and he has never left your side. Read the story about Joseph in the old testament. It tells the story of a 17 year old boy who's brothers hated him and sold him and told his father that he was dead.
I learned about how he had all the feelings that so many of us LBS have during this time. He was rejected, persecuted, lied about, forgotten about, betrayed, and many other things. All of the same things that the Lord went through. Yet, he had a purpose and there was a reason he went through everything that he went through.
The most important thing that I learned though, is that you have to stop looking and focusing on what happened to you, what is happening now and all the emotions that are going on inside of you. That what you are going through and what has happened, is not your destiny.
That the Lord has a much better destiny for you, but Satan doesn't want you to have that destiny. He wants you to stay trapped in the pit. That is where he wants you to stay, so as long as he can make you believe that you are unable to forgive, unable to forget, unable to go on or whatever else he can come up with, then he has you in that pit never getting what God has planned for you.
He has you blinded and deceived. He has you thinking that God doesn't care or that he is not there and that keeps you living in the pit where God does not want you to be. It is hard to get this, because it took me a long time, but you have so much power within you that you don't even realize that you have because satan has you believing that your life is gone down the tubes because the person that you cared so much about has done so many awful things.
This is not true. Yes, the circumstances are not he best, but that doesn't mean that the Lord can not and will not change those circumstances around. Who knows what they Lord has out there for you that is waiting, but unless you let go of the things of the past and the pain, he can't get those things to you.
He understands everything that you have been through and he cares, but he needs you to take a step of faith and let go and move forward. Get out of your pit and into the palace that he has there for you.
