New Year..Need new goals

[Rain75]

No worries Zues....Pink..Anna...25Years and everyone else. I will get back to you all soon. My friend came earlier than expected and brought her son as well as her BF. They are leaving in a few hours.

And boy oh boy after seeing them together it made me both happy and sad. He is clearly in love with her. And since mines cell phone has always been my trigger it was nice to see a man that not only doesn't have a password on his phone but also doesn't blink an eye when he walks in the room and she's showing me pictures on his phone.

I have been doing a lot of reading over the past few days though. And now my X wants to come see the kids tomorrow. I didn't say anything but okay. But wow. What's he has done has really affected my self esteem. And it bothers me that he can go for days without even asking about them...weeks without seeing them but pops up when he wants.

I don't want to keep them from seeing him though hence my saying okay.