Hi DB Community, I have been hanging around on these boards since the end of October when SH BDed me. Tomorrow is the first mediation appointment. I understand that it is mostly informational but I am really dreading it--just seeing him and having to confront this and start accepting that it is over. Some days it is easier than others--I just feel like my heart is in my throat today and I feel more desperate than ever. At this point, none of my family or friends in any way support reconciliation. But I love him and I don't want a divorce despite the fact that I rationally know that I have no other options. It still seems like it is just coming out of the blue.
I thought that we were doing a great job patching things up with summer. It was an awful year for us, but I thought we were both coming to terms with it and moving on together.
He BD'ed me on the day that he was fired. He is a def MLC with acute depression. He has been unemployed for almost 18 months. In many ways, my life has begun to get calmer since I moved out-(that;s right, he B'Ded me and I was the one who had to move out.)
Just looking for some words of wisdom for tomorrow. This is the prior thread if you are interested in the details of the situation--
