Well so far she has steered clear of packing important or anything that has meaning. I understand it's not easy for her too. She did find a few things that triggered tears. I can say that yes I have cried a bit during this. Because it's hard. Not as hard as she has tho. There was a point where I could see she was on the verge of tears. I grabbed her and held her close and she really cried. For the first time I have seen since this all began. It's hard to stay unaffected by her right now. And I am working on it. Doing better than I thought I would be
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
The children definitely help. Reading other threads and comments on my own I realize whenever you are thinking about S too much or something that hurts I make it a point to focus on a good memory. Mine are always something with my kids.
While W was packing things today. And I'm sure the rest of the week will not go easy for either of us. I saw in her demeanour and mood that it was tough on her too. I was supportive of her emotions. Something clicked tho. All this time I have been waiting for her to say she was wrong. I've been angry and scared. I'm still scared and hurt but I saw that she is going. She will be leaving by the end of the week. I can't stop it by talking. Crying. Begging. Changing. Being everything she wanted me to be. It will be a hard day when she goes. I will survive tho. I know I am in the right path for myself because when I follow it I am happy. When I stray I become sad, angry and feel sorry for myself.
I am going to go on for me. For my children and anything anyone thinks about that.... It doesn't matter
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
A large problem I am having right now is the not believeing anything they say and 1/2 of what they do. She is still kind and caring to me. Still shows emotion over the situation. Told me again that if I was the way I am now and have been for the last month, been like this years ago none of this would have ever been a problem. She still wants to know I got somewhere safe and says drive safe when I go somewhere. She brought up me going out on Friday. She said when she saw me ready and headed out she thought I was going on a date. While she said it she was very figity and nervous like she was really uncomfortable with the thought and making awkward jokes and nervously laughing.
Yesterday when she was packing, when I would leave to go do something she would follow me around. Especially to my room and just try to chit chat. It's making it really tough to see her like this and not slide back. I also took a big step for me today. Part of letting go. It may sound silly to some, but I unfriended her on fb. I saw she changed her name back to her maiden name and it bothered me a lot. It got me thinking tho. I have been terrified to look on there because of anything she might post. And I do want to be friends with her in my life but not because she doesn't want to be my wife anymore. Because that's the only option I have.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
I should say I'm not going to be her friend because it's the only option she is giving me. My job was husband and best friend. In her eyes I was bad at my job and so I was fired. With the option of staying around for a lesser position with less pay and benefits. I could hold onto it because it's a job. Or I could look for something I want to do. Be self employed and look after myself and my kids. Sounds like a better option for me
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
I was just talking to W and I told her I understand she is going to follow her path. She has to do her thing. I have to do mine. I slipped and said tho I understand that part its hard for me to not think about not trying to work on us. To which I got. Oh my god there hasn't been anything to work on for 3 months. You need to realize I am going Why can't I just drop this and move on.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
So I need to get things together. w is leaving Saturday morning to move into her new place. Before then I want to write up a separation agreement and sit with her to go over it. I can't afford a lawyer to do this but I can't be stupid and have her leave without an agreement in place.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
Anyone else have moments where you do something because it feels like the natural thing to do. Then as soon as you do it you realize, that was something ok awhile ago but now it's awkward and I shouldn't have done that. Then everything comes rushing back until you can focus and move on
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
